Hi Nita! Im so happy that you are showing us your paintings, and from 1998!!!!! How you do that at such an early age is beyond me. Truly are amazing, just like your sculptures. I'm sorry that you haven't had many positive encouraging souls in your life but know that there are some of us that truly wish you much success and happiness in all that you do!!!
Nita.. I too have enjoyed looking at your (incredible) paintings so much.. that I started to wonder how on earth you decided to turn into sculpting!
Mind you, your sculpts are ABSOLUTELY amazing... but your paintings are just as awesome!
I went through many of your replies.. and my heart broke too while reading all this bullshit you had deal with every step of the way
I guess however, that this is the reason why your work has the impact that it has... cause there is genuine emotion and actual experience behind it... unlike most of us who need to rely on a sad song or a crappy romance movie to get some sort of inspiration when creating something dark or melancholic....
I guess what I am trying to say is that you NEVER fail to impress! Anything you tackle artistically stands head and shoulders over what most of us do... you exceed the expectations of your fans EVERY single time... you really do have the golden touch.. and a pair of VERY talented (...and beautiful) hands!
If you were a guy... I strongly believe that you would be A LOT more well known!
There a lot more painters out there than sculptors with the later doing mostly 3D abstract stuff.. and calling them sculpts. Some times I feel that if it weren't for modelers, action figures and dolls we would hardly see any "real" sculpting at all...... but thats my opinion anyway...
Ever thought of using photoshop to manipulate your paintings? I noticed somewhere that you mentioned how you wanted to add the feeling of movement on her head... I just can't help but think how some digital painting over your oil paintings would give you the chance to rework them and make them stand out even more. Due to your lack of time and resources this could be a solution.... You could even create some limited editions prints (and/or ACEOs) for sale..
I don't know.. I may be shooting my mouth here.. I guess what I am trying to say is that I ADORE your work and would love to see you producing more of it
Dear sweet Yovanka! This was all a long time ago. Ive enjoyed 7 years as a professional sculptor and its been wonderful! I want other artist to see Im not a bigcat that got everything overnight. Im getting up after being knocked down again and again. I think my life experiance makes my work strong. Ive gotten brave and ornery People here loving my art has made me stronger and heal too.
yes I want to use photoshop. I think digitally a simple motion blur would be easy. I dont have a tablet for painting. Only a mouse,but I can do some things. I dont know if I want to alter old paintings. I want to find my new voice. Possibly could sell prints. Im just starting so be patient with me!
I'm still so amazed that you don't use a reference for your entire picture. I need about 10 references to make a complete painting - nothing of which comes from my head.
I also love that there's a bit of the cliche 'tormented artist' apparent in your work. The cliche aspect isn't a bad thing at all! I just mean that there's a dark, disturbing aspect to your work & disturbed, insane artists are always the best ones... but also the one's that don't get much praise until after their dead. But nonetheless - they are the best.
This isn't to say that you are disturbed or insane - but rather this work simply implies it.
All in all - I love your work. I love your sculpture work, but being a painter, I can relate to your paintings more.
I did use reference for this. The mans arm, and the decoration on the gold box. Its still a very cartoon image with not much depth.
When I begin painting again Ill use more references. In fact I want to use photoshop to work out the composition and colors ahead of time.And stock images here. This is a resource I didnt have before. My sculpts I dont need reference for. I adjust it till it looks the way I want. oil paint is forgiving ,but it helps if you have a map. Oh yeah I am typical starving artist with depression and obsession with weird art.My moms a raving nutter,but my heads on straight. Thank you
This I feel has an interesting array of ideas speaking in this painting. For me what stands out most is that she's an automaton, which would imply she's made by man or others like her, yet the hand coming from above seems more like one of a divine being instead of a human or something like it. It creates thoughts about what events occurred, what it would or could mean. The kind of world it must be.
Although it's unfinished, the simply composition makes it seem just right, although I wonder what it could've looked like had you decided to stick with it. A few things about Olympia that I enjoy and that's that she can only be seen as an artificial being through some subtle features. The turnkey in her back, the brass gears that show up under her collarbone, and finally her fingers that I think are my favorite part of her. Those are elegant and add mystique to her. What seems to be some kind of gyroscope (if that's what it is) gives off this feeling that there's something cosmic or otherworldly going on here, which is another nice touch. There seems to be a duality about everything here and you pull this off very well.
Though I wonder, what's the idea with what seems to be that kind of after image of her face? I could interpret it as something to do with a soul that she may have or earn, but I wonder what it means to you. All in all, this is very good work as well.
Hmmm this is a very intelligent break down of the imagery. Ive always been interested in creating artificial beings,robots, automatons,clones, designer babies ,H+etc.
In this case god is man.The arm echoes that old famous painting of God and Adam reaching out to each other. Its divine the desire to create. Why do we want to design images of human like beings? Usually they represent our ideals. We see our flaws we want to change them. Be stronger,smarter, better looking,live longer etc.We are merging with machine and we will more and more inevitably.
Olympia is the name of a mechanical ballet dancer a guy falls in love with. The armillary sphere behind her echoes the way the universe is like a huge clockwork.And they are also just bad ass! ^-^ The after image of her face is motion blur,but I like your idea of it being a soul.
Funny, I never made too many friends either. I stuck to a few people I knew and that was mostly it. You're right about augmentation, but I feel that we do it in subtle, even hesitant ways. I await the day when it becomes more direct. That should be fun in one way or another.
Oh I was saying that I had few friends. That part you probably got before I was 7 we lived in 5 different states.
Bio technologies are funded by various human needs. Plastic surgery by the vain. Boob jobs used to risk health with silicone directly injected into the tissue. Now they are safer saline because of the women willing to risk in the past. The same with facial surgery. it may often look plastic or bad now,but the people getting it are pioneers and some day it will be a refined science on that money invested. What if it was painless,risk free and undetectable?
Genetic engineering started out getting rid of genetic disease and weaknesses like cancer. Its already done in the UK. Disease is one thing but, what if you could keep your son from ever balding, choose him to be taller than you were, more of an athlete, his eye color?
Now we a have dogs tagged with locator chips and I expect the biggest fear of parents(abducted children) will overcome the hesitancy to put a chip in their child. In a few generations everybody has a locator chip. They can be found by satellite anywhere. Why not also add a cell phone signal in that tiny chip. The cell technology evolves smaller until its in your ear,hands free. Then why not a computer augmentation as they too get smaller and smaller? People can use brain waves to control a computer. Which is already done with pilots and parlized people. Why not everybody? There you are.
If I had the money I would have a house full of this stuff and mucha influence
The scientific tools and impliments are really interesting! Old tools of all kinds are just cool to hold and fiddle with. I love heavy hardware. It feels good I love steampunk but, I fight the label especially since it so seldom has anything to do with steam power or boiler plate.
At the moment, my small hall is dedicated...and this might sound silly...but to a character in a novel I'm writing. A professor (of sorts). So I'm starting to fill it with antique clocks (four so far, all chiming, which is fun!), pocket watches, a sextant, a brass compass, loads of old keys, old coins, hourglasses, antique boxes, a Victorian newspaper...and all that jazz! Hee hee! I love standing in there, hearing all the ticking, whilst looking at the old stuff! I'm just weird!
Yes, I had never heard of Steampunk until recently. Still discovering more about it.
Sounds cool to me. I tried to write a sci fi and Id love to have a room for the characters things.But the main character isnt human. Id need props. Your collection is Victorian mechanisms antique or reproduction.But like your character might have a magnifying glass, microscope, test tubes things that are historical and a matter duplicator. It makes it believable to have real mixed with the made up part. what annoys me is steampunk earrings. That has no function.. Im sorry Victorian age women wouldnt be caught dead wearing cogs.Any more than women now prefer micro chips to diamond studs. To me cogs for jewelry is more like apocalyptic style. Maybe surviving progeny use Victorian scrap to make jewelry. but Im just fanatic thinking out the logic behind such made up things
All my Victorian stuff is authentic, which is why it is taking time to build up my collection. But I just couldn't get the same atmosphere from reproductions. Hearing the tick of a genuine Victorian clock really stirs me, knowing that a Victorian heard the same tick. I've actually started collecting Victorian diaries and I'm reading one from 1862 (a little pocket diary). I'm using a magnifying glass to try to decipher the teeny tiny writing, but it's amazing to read. Now I want to know what this man looks like, and more of his life. It's sad that I never will...
No, I can't understand those steampunk earrings either. I like the idea of all the cogs etc but not really as part of jewelry.
Thats so cool! Old clocks sound so much better and are calming instead of nerve wracking to listen to. I have some old photos, a brass compass its way heavy! a brass antique shaving mirror.And a lace nightgown that is old. I wish I could afford the photo albums and better quality stuff like nouveau jewelry.
Reading a diary must be odd. Gears and cogs are great,but getting kinda silly.
Hey ! Maybe you could achieve it as a doll ?! A kind of sculpture with a beautyfull Winder Musicbox between the neck and shoulder blades...? And maybe do as if the winder was an extention from a kind of light armor...? I'm sure you could make a stunning piece with this Idea. ^^
And I'm sure you have already thought about it long ago this way ^^
yea, off coarse I wanna know, I think I know your story already, I understand trust me. And Your sculptures are even more impressive. Sometimes I feel like just shutting my mouth and just learn from observation XD.
yeah I think you know. But heres a buttload of the crap that made me give up. Buckets of negativity, poppy seeds of encouragement, no peers,no mentor,scraping to buy supplies. Your own family laughing at your work. Rude jokes about your art.Mom saying she fears for your soul cause of your dark art.Stepfather gives you his old paints says he will teach you but ,instead sticks his tongue in your mouth. Ever after anything you do is nothing. A good string of that. Painting disgusting commissions like a wild cat hunter standing proud with his kill, copies of other artists work or portraits of ugly people from blurry old photos. they say make them look younger,thinner, removed the slobber etc. Change this,fix that.. then in the end say Uh that doenst look like them!
Humiliation, No answers from sending out slides or letters to publishers,clients that stiff you, or ask you to defend your price quote or worse tell you how much they are going to pay you and what your worth, Clients that are pissed that the framing costs more and didnt come with. Business owners so cheap they make their own scrap lumber frames making your work look totally crappy hanging in public.Galleries attendants that ask so what art school are you attending? Why? May I ask, are you on your period or are you normally so bloated?
I got published and instead of feeling happy I cringed at my painting next to professional illustrators. I knew I wasnt good enough and the mantra " the bar is being raised each year" meant mediocre is out. Owning 5 old worn paint brushes that I used every day. Got told brushes when taken care of should last decades! By someone with 100s of the best quality weekend warrior brushes. Her painting sucked and she asked me to fix her mistakes. I fixed them and swapped her paintings in return for canvas and supplies. Found out she was selling my paintings. Acquaintances at parties say they know someone who knows someone who can get you a break someplace important. You never see them ever again, bet on it. Men who say your talented pretend to be cultured then slip their hand up your dress. So cool broody artist wanna bes with sketches all over their notebooks and tattoos of their own design look you up and down and scoff that little girls could draw or paint anything. You point out really bad obvious anatomy flaws as tactfully as you can and they grunt to dismiss you never looking you eye to eye.
Art opportunities like scholarships that appear after you are one yr past the age requirement. Paying to get into false hope art orgs like ASFA. Entering contests and never winning. Just before I quit I called a lady in the phone book who was doing abstract digital prints. Just to talk to another human who loved art. I showed her "opulent death" She said that the tail part looked unfinished and that I was ungrounded and some crazy quasi art intellectual BS. Then she said encouragingly. your young yet.. keep at it.
Happy to hear this sad story, apparently not all child prodigies get the type of attention they deserved, and being a beautiful young woman definitely obscured mens focus. We are all just slightly evolved animals after all . Judging from the quality of work you produced at such a young age, I believe that you where taking advantage of, so much detail and thoughtful physics capturing, their is no way your mind could have been anywhere else.
I apologize for all the negative feedback you got back in the day and Know I love all they work you do, either painting or sculpture, your work is not flawless but PERFECT in my eyes.
Considering what I have gone through, I try not repeat, I will try and be professional with my comments.